Believe

I'm sitting in my art studio today, pondering the mysteries of life. For real, I am!

I'm embarking on an adventure full of new beginnings. Back to college in the fall to earn a BS in Art, hoping that I will someday have an art studio where I'll teach people of all ages how to immerse themselves in their creative juices. I'll find a way to make this my career because life's too short to get a job simply to make money. I want a job that allows me to share my passion for creating. A job that makes a difference...maybe not a change-the-whole-world difference...maybe a change-the-life-of-a-person-here-and-there difference. Maybe changing the life of a person, inspiring her to follow her bliss and find joy, does change the world a little at a time. I should set my goals higher. I will change the world.

So many possibilities. So much promise. At times it's overwhelming. In a good way.

At the same time that I'm here, contemplating the promise of my future, my 93 year old Grandmother is in the hospital with a heart that's showing its age. She told my parents, "I don't want to be old." Now I feel joy step aside to let sadness in.

I know that my Grandmother worries a lot. She worries about whether or not her children love her. Worries about whether or not she was a good mother. Worries about many other things that I don't even know. I'm pretty sure there's a Worrying Gene. Dad got it. I got it. I'm pretty sure my son got it.

Here's the thing: When I'm 93, I don't want to be lying in a hospital bed worrying about whether or not I was a good mom, wife, daughter, friend; whether or not I lived my best life; whether or not I left the world a little better than I found it; whether or not I made the best of every single second. I want to lie there and BELIEVE that I did all of those things, and did them well. I have to believe that I will.

I'd love to hear what YOU believe in. Post a comment below.

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So...

Back when I started this blog, I had high aspirations that it would be a place where, DAILY, I'd post a quote, anecdote, or some piece of wisdom that I'd acquired the day before, maybe some piece of inspiration that dawned on me. Once I started the blog, I suddenly felt pressure to make it extraordinary, and that pressure froze me in my tracks. I was reading the blogs of women much, much wiser than myself, and I felt that there was no way I'd measure up to that, so why even try?

Well, I'm back, and I'm ready to give it another shot. However, this time I'm not putting pressure on myself to "perform" daily or to try to be so profound that your socks will fly off every time you visit and read my posts. My intention is to share my experiences and hope that sometimes (maybe not every time) you might take away a little nugget to ponder.

This week I felt stirrings of the promise of a new chapter in my life. A chapter written by ME, not by other peoples' expectations of me. Is it scary? yep. Am I gonna let the fear paralyze me? no way. I know in my heart that I'm on the right path. I know that it may be hard to go back to college full time with a family to care for. But I also know that I am setting an example for my kids. I'm letting them know that it's okay to follow your dreams, and that when you're a part of a family you all work together to help each member accomplish his or her goals.

I'm not gonna lie...I'm anxious about it, but that anxiety is overshadowed by sheer bliss. I am finally doing what my HEART tells me is right, not what my BRAIN tells me is practical, and it feels GREAT.

I hope that you have the courage to follow your dreams...big, small, and in-between. Go for it. I believe in YOU.

Quote of the Day

"May there be peace within.

May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

May you be content with yourself just the way you are.

Let this knowledge settle into your bones,

and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of us." 

~Garrison Keillor

Quote of the Day

Friendship is the source of the greatest pleasures,

and without friends even the most agreeable pursuits become tedious.

~St. Thomas Aquinas

Links

Here's a link to a great article about gratitude. Take a minute to read it!

http://www.dailygood.org/more.php?n=3855